Recently

I haven't been able to do anything. Since times are tough I can't even afford to go back to school in January. I don't want to take out student loans because I'm afraid of when the time comes to pay them back I wont be able to! I've just been so depressed about it. My dreams of being a nurse are being pushed back further and further. UGH!! Things are just not fun right now, I'm severely depressed because I stay home all day with Lili and I don't talk to an adult all day until Rob or my mom come home, and they are always in a bad mood so the interaction isn't even fun. Like I can't even pray without feeling so sad and empty; praying for a miracle or some sort of help with life. I feel like I'm screaming in a sound proof room almost.

On The Flip side! Christmas Eve is tomorrow and I'm pretty excited! Lili will have the best Christmas for sure. That little girl is so spoiled, yup everything I said i would never do I have done. I get her everything within our financial needs and she is happy! She has more toys then Toy r us! No joke that little girl has everything. But we get to give her the most important gift tomorrow which is her BIG GIRL CAR SEAT!! WHOOT WHOOT! I can't wait, I don't like carrying her around in the infant seat!
So Momma's birthday was today and I made her a Red Velvet Cake from scratch with Cream Cheese Icing. We didn't even eat a peace because we went to dinner at Tucano's, and we all know what that means. Except this time I so wasn't happy the only thing that I absolutely loved was the Beef Brisket (Maybe that's just the Texan in me) and The Garlic Serlion or whatever it is!
I will post some pics of the night!

My Girl Feel Asleep!


Mom, excited to read cards and open gifts!

Lilianes Birthday Party

The party was a hit there were a ton of people, and all the little kids didn't want to leave at the end of the night! We had carnival games, a cake walk, a bounce house, and a baby ball pit, and it was a lot of fun.. Oh and I can't forget we had TWO pinatas! Not ONE but TWO! Hahaha it was a blast!

Time Fly's!

So a year ago I gave Birth to the most perfect little girl in the world! I can't believe that next week my baby girl will be a year old. She has been walking for a month now! She speaks so much jibberish it makes me happy to know that she is perfect in every little way! I hope that they can find out what is wrong with her soon, because I don't like to see her in pain! Hopefully it's not a lactose problem. Anyways I will have to update it in a week so you can see her birthday pictures!