So It's about that time when people actually know that I'm having a baby they don't have to guess anymore because my belly is just way too big!! This makes me a little sad that people can actually see that I'm growing to be a huge pregnant lady, but at the same time it makes me really happy because you know that those people aren't judging you because you are fat.. they are just simply happy for you. As weird as it sounds they are really happy. Babies make everyone happy.
Last night was a really good night and also a really hard night as well. I went to dinner with some friends and of course I'm the only pregnant one that can't do what I used to do. I feel like I can't have fun. So they tell me their stories about their weekend and how bomb it was, and it made me feel really bad; like I was missing out on something. After dinner everyone goes to the bathroom and me and a couple friends stay out and chit chat a bit and they start touching my belly and she was kicking her little heart out and they were so excited and couldn't believe it. They had so much joy on their faces (mind you these are boys). I couldn't help but feel so saddened that these boys who are my friends want to touch my belly and feel my daughter kick a lot more then her father ever does or probably ever will. They compliment my belly more then he ever does, they make me feel like a good person. I told one of the boys that I was saddened that I couldn't hang out and party like I used to, and you know what his response was?
"That is perfectly all right, you have something better to come."
Tear jerker. He was right my daughter is really important to me and I want to teach her the best that I can. Isn't it just so strange that someone can make you feel so good when you feel so down, and they don't even know it.
Anyways the night got better they went and partied and I went home and went to bed.
