Wednesday, January 9, 2013

Wow it's been too long.

Things are going great, as always. I have had a job promotion within the last 6 months and I moved to Salt Lake. My life has been moving on exceptionally. My daughter is getting smarter by the minute, and growing up so fast. She is 4 years old now!!! How the time flies.

My move to Salt Lake has been a hard one. I don't have any friends that live up here, which is really hard. At the same time it's a relief because I have had more time to concentrate on myself and on my daughter. I know that I have become a better mother and a better person by this. I am no longer in a relationship which also makes it harder. We lived so closed together and that is my only friend up here. All things happen for  a reason and I promised myself that no matter what I wouldn't waste too much time on something that isn't for me. Even though we were together for almost 2 years things sometimes don't always end up the way we want them too.

I am finally in the place in my life where things are going very well. I have a new car and a beautiful apartment. If everything works out as planned I will buy my own house at the end of the year. That is the most important thing on my list. With my own house I have officially grown up. I don't want anything big, just something small and comfortable... maybe enough rooms to rent a couple out to my friends. Only problem is good deals don't really show up that often in the Salt Lake area.

Anyway that is my update. Really boring I know.

Wednesday, April 4, 2012

Looking Back..

On a lot of things that I have done I don't regret any decision that I have made. I don't regret where I am in life now. My Boyfriend is a dream boat!!! I am so in love with him. He is the best thing ever.
He loves me no matter the cost. He gives me the shirt off his back. The truth is after Rob and I broke up I had no idea how to go about dating, or even moving on.

The story of us! I was still working at the hotel when I met this good looking man. I was training the first time I set my eyes on him! He asked me if I had the keys and me being as naive as I was responded with a laugh. He probably thought I was so stupid cause he stood there and just looked at me. I was a little nervous because I thought that he was SO freakin' cute! So then he told me that he delivers the coffee every Wednesday and that it was OK for me to give him the keys. I just said no and to wait for me to ask someone if it was true. It was true. I felt so stupid. Weeks and weeks went by and casual hello's and goodbye's and I just remember telling everyone that I had a crush on him. I remember that he smelled so good! The halls would smell like him after he left. I was still in a relationship so I couldn't even get further into my crush, but I did look forward to Wednesday's and the girls at work would give me updates if they saw him lol! Finally one day our conversation lasted about an hour. I thought that maybe he was interested in me. Turns out he was interested, but he was just very shy. I was interested in him as well, but didn't know how to go about it the right way. Then Rob confessed his infidelities and he broke up with me. I told Rob that this was the last time that we would ever be together. I think he rubbed it off his shoulder thinking that I was joking. I wasn't a month after I got over the sadness... which to tell you the truth I don't know why I was sad. I was in a toxic relationship. Anyways I had decided that I wanted to get to know Mr. Coffee. I hadn't seen him in months so I was starting to think that he maybe wasn't delivering to us anymore, but if that was the case I would have known because It would have been up to me to find a new Coffee service.

He walked in that looking so handsome and the first thing he says is "HEY!!! I was wondering if it would be you at the front desk today." I had the biggest smile on my face. We chatted for another hour but neither of us asked each other out. So I went out and bought a new outfit for the next time I would see him. It was summer time so I just bought a short sleeve button up and a nice pair of slacks. I was so nervous that day that he was coming in. I had told everyone that I was asking him out that day... so of course everyone at work was making me nervous. He finally walked in. My heart was racing I thought I was going to pass out. Turns out that there was a problem with the coffee pod so I was trying to show him exactly what it was. He complimented my watch while we were waiting and I told him that I like his and he took off his watch and put it on my wrist. I thought I was going to die of excitement. Any who I never ended up asking him out I chickened out. The next week my brother was waiting to give me a ride home. My brother saw that I was flirting with this guy and he asked me if that was the coffee guy, and I told him that it was and that I was going to ask him out. My brother approved and said go for it he's a good looking dude. I chickened out again and I think it's because my brother was watching me. I went into a meeting and it turns out while I was in my meeting my brother asked Mr. Coffee for his number for me. Pretty embarrassing, but since then we have been inseparable. We have had some ups and downs especially when it comes to Vegas and what happened. Like I said earlier I don't regret any of the decisions that I have made. Including Vegas... I love Vegas and I'm so excited to go back again. Morgan is by far the best decision that I have ever made. I am so lucky that he loves me and my daughter so much! He brings out the best in me.

I hope everyone has a blessed day!!

Friday, March 30, 2012

Sometimes it just hurts!

I can't get over the fact that someone can just betray you just like that! I can't get over the fact that sometimes it just hurts. I think about my past 4 years with Rob.. and sometimes randomly someone some girl will pop up on the do you know them tab. I kinda know them and their profile pic is on his boat! Supposedly when we were still together! It's not the fact that I'm bitter that bothers me 'cause I am a little bitter. It's the fact that Rob is a habitual cheater and I was supposed to be the love of his life. It's the fact that he has no respect for his Daughter or the Mother of his child that bothers me. I want him to be happy and if sleeping around is what makes him happy then so be it. Sometimes the thought that someone lied to you so much just hurts, and there really isn't anything that helps with your emotional guilt.

NOW that's all the bashing I'm going to do for a couple of months lol! GREAT NEWS! Jerry has gotten a new job! SAD NEWS!!! :( He had to move to Houston TX for that Job. After he is done with training and everything he is going to be moving again. He will either be staying in Houston moving to Jersey or Cleveland! We have family and friends in both Houston and Jersey so that would be the best for him, but I'm not so sure about Cleveland. My wish for him is to go to Jersey. I'm pretty selfish when sometimes I pray that he stays in Houston, but the fact of the matter is Jersey is closer to his son and he needs to start building a bond with him. I will miss having him so close everyday and just doing crazy stuff 'cause we could. It's hard when you have to grow up and move on. No one said it would be this heartbreaking. I think about it now and how I'm moving up to Salt Lake in a couple of months. It's going to be hard not having my closest friends and family with me. Planning all this stuff is just so hard, but oh well... such is life!

MORE GREAT NEWS! I got a promotion at work! I've only been there since the beginning of January and I've already been chosen to be one of the Spanish Reps. I get a new desk, more money $$$ YAY! I also get a nicer schedule!! Hopefully (fingers crossed.)

LILS is doing great. She is in dance class so she is learning so much and having so much fun! She comes home and shows me everything she learned. She plays Zumba with me on the WII so mommy can loose weight! That is what she tells everyone. She is just too smart for her own good. I know that every parent says that about their kid and most of them are right, but my kid just has this passion for knowledge she loves to sit and learn. I do not care if she is that nerdy kid in school that knows everything because that way I know that she wasn't like me and getting into trouble. I want so much for her. She is starting school in Aug! It makes me really nervous and I hope that I am doing the right thing by letting her go to school so early! She wants to though and this school for kids like her wants her to go too! They think she can be something extraordinary. It's weird right!? Thinking that your kid could be the next Albert Einstein. I hope she is. Then I would know that at least I did something right with her.

I hope everyone has a fabulous weekend!