Just down

So I've just been so down lately it's crazy! I feel like things might be falling apart and it's way out of my control. I don't agree with some of the things that are going on and that are being said and I feel like I'm not getting the respect that I deserve. I won't get into too much detail, but the situation is stinky. It feels like the only thing I have right now are my friendships, and my mom and of course Lili. I need to save my relationship but it's really hard right now! I need to find a new apartment, but the thing is I don't want to waste money on rent anymore. I want to buy my own place. A place I can do whatever I please with. We will see whats going to happen.