Happy Late Christmas and Merry New Year!

Well we went on an ice fishing trip so I didn't blog about Christmas! Usually our Christmas tradition is the whole family gets together and we have this nice dinner, and there is music and dancing. Then when the clock hits 12 we all open our presents since it's Christmas all ready and then we wake up in the morning and play with our gifts and clean up our mess. BUT no one wanted to folow that tradition this year they just wanted to go bed. So I made them open my gifts. Lili was so excited when all the little kids got here, she was dancing the whole night that as soon as it was time to eat cake she was just shoving the cake in her mouth (mind you it's like 10:30) way past her bed time! She finished eating her cake and played with the kids. We put her Christmas Pj's on and she passed out at 11:00 pm and didn't move the rest of the night lol. I went in at 1:00 am pretty sure the both of us didn't wake up until Rob bursts the Bedroom door open. I'm so tired but when I look at the clock it was almost 10:00 am. My parents where sitting on the couch drinking coffee and they were like wow you guys had a long night. Not really mom you were there! So Lili was spoiled out of all the peoples in the house. I got a a Flat Screen TV! Really nice from Rob. I had asked for a camera and kit but in order to get it everyone in the family had to chip in $200+ I couldn't ask that so I have 1/3 of the money saved up to get it myself lol! Rob got new hunting gear! He was pretty excited about that. He's really hard to shop for since he hates everything. My mom got lots of monies to just spend wherever she wants; she's a bad one to shop for too. I got Jerry a Camping coffee mug and campfire blend coffee he loved that, but I think he loved his birthday present more.. my mom got him a BYU wind Jacket which he couldn't wait to open cause it had his name on it.

On saturday we took off and went Ice fishing at Piute Resevior. We stayed at Big Rock Candy Mountain ( Seriously middle of nowhere.. the people who live there run the businesses. That's how small we are talking) Anyways mom and I and Lili stayed behind the first day while the boys took off fishing. We had fun in the hotel a little bit. We ate at the cafe for lunch and then just chilled in the room. Keep in mind it's like 0 degrees the whole time. I couldn't get good pictures because I forgot my boots next to the couch. Well the boys came back and then we got all dolled up and went to dinner at Hoover's... not Hooter's..... Hoover's! SO GOOD! I had the all you can eat Crab Legs and I was just in heaven! Everyone know's how much I enjoyed that! Rob had the fish and chips (all you can eat) My momma had Prime Rib and that was just amazing too. It was a huge piece of meat and she got the smallest cut! Jerry was like me and got the Crab legs. It was just fun! The next day we go up had a good breakfast and then went ice fishing!

Recently

I haven't been able to do anything. Since times are tough I can't even afford to go back to school in January. I don't want to take out student loans because I'm afraid of when the time comes to pay them back I wont be able to! I've just been so depressed about it. My dreams of being a nurse are being pushed back further and further. UGH!! Things are just not fun right now, I'm severely depressed because I stay home all day with Lili and I don't talk to an adult all day until Rob or my mom come home, and they are always in a bad mood so the interaction isn't even fun. Like I can't even pray without feeling so sad and empty; praying for a miracle or some sort of help with life. I feel like I'm screaming in a sound proof room almost.

On The Flip side! Christmas Eve is tomorrow and I'm pretty excited! Lili will have the best Christmas for sure. That little girl is so spoiled, yup everything I said i would never do I have done. I get her everything within our financial needs and she is happy! She has more toys then Toy r us! No joke that little girl has everything. But we get to give her the most important gift tomorrow which is her BIG GIRL CAR SEAT!! WHOOT WHOOT! I can't wait, I don't like carrying her around in the infant seat!
So Momma's birthday was today and I made her a Red Velvet Cake from scratch with Cream Cheese Icing. We didn't even eat a peace because we went to dinner at Tucano's, and we all know what that means. Except this time I so wasn't happy the only thing that I absolutely loved was the Beef Brisket (Maybe that's just the Texan in me) and The Garlic Serlion or whatever it is!
I will post some pics of the night!

My Girl Feel Asleep!


Mom, excited to read cards and open gifts!

Lilianes Birthday Party

The party was a hit there were a ton of people, and all the little kids didn't want to leave at the end of the night! We had carnival games, a cake walk, a bounce house, and a baby ball pit, and it was a lot of fun.. Oh and I can't forget we had TWO pinatas! Not ONE but TWO! Hahaha it was a blast!

Time Fly's!

So a year ago I gave Birth to the most perfect little girl in the world! I can't believe that next week my baby girl will be a year old. She has been walking for a month now! She speaks so much jibberish it makes me happy to know that she is perfect in every little way! I hope that they can find out what is wrong with her soon, because I don't like to see her in pain! Hopefully it's not a lactose problem. Anyways I will have to update it in a week so you can see her birthday pictures!

Lilianes Condition.

So 3 to almost 4 weeks ago Liliane and the whole family got the flu. Except her diarrhea never went away. I had been taking her to a Dr. every week telling them that she still has diarrhea and they said it was normal, or it was because she was getting all four top teeth at once! Ok I know how hard it is for them to get teeth, but diarrhea doesn't last for more then a couple days I mean I'm not stupid I took care of my little cousins and what not. I just don't like the Bull con answers that they are giving me. But I keep trying to fix her myself.. like before, with just straight pedialyte or just banana juice or rice in everything.. it's not working. What liquid goes in comes straight out her bum; within seconds too! It's just really disheartening. So finally I took her to the InstaCare and he ordered a bunch of tests, and he's just like you need a stool sample whenever you can get one just hang out for a few days.. well unfortunately we couldn't wait a few days. Yesterday after her breakfast of bananas bread and a little bit of baby food she did the grunting and you could here that she had just went poop. Well When I changed her diaper it was full of blood! Just straight blood. I didn't know how to react to this.. and of course lily is screaming bloody murder not helping the situation at all! So of course I started crying, not knowing what else to do.. I put the diaper in a bag and we get ready and go to the ER.. let me tell you if you really have an emergency never go to UVRMC we waited 2 and a half hours and we weren't getting seen. Well I picked up told them to shove it and we went to Orem community! Of course no one was there and we got seen right away.
The thing that upsets me the most is that the Drs approach to me is very rude like, " we can't figure out what's wrong with her since you couldn't get that stool sample." That is not what I want to hear. I want to hear that you are going to help me get that sample and that you are going to figure out what we are doing to help this BABY, cause after all that is what she is a baby! So finally they do some blood work and I was about to die!! They put in a butterfly needle in her arm.. to us that's like nothing, but to babies that's like a 12 gage needle when you're giving birth! HUGE! So they blood work comes out ok. Now we get sent home she finally goes in the bag that they placed, and then we go to the hospital again to drop it off! Now we wait. The Dr said she might have to go to a Pediatric Endocrinologist which is the digestive system Dr, and they will do a Pediatric colonoscopy. Whatever needs to be done to find out why she is having malabsorbtion. As a parent you think of your child as perfect. So when she is so brittle like this and you can't help her it tears you down, and I am super depressed for her and for myself because I feel like I am failing my daughter. I stay up with her at night when she is screaming because you can just hear her stomach hurting and it hurts me more then it does her, because I want more then anything to just take on her pain.
That is something Drs. wont understand. To me, I'm desperate for answers.. to them, I'm just an overprotective parent. So everyone please keep lily in your prayers because she's getting worse everyday.

Coping!

So nothing really new is going on here!
Well Actually Lily is a walking!! Yup and she's not even 11 months yet! She's still pretty sick with that bug! Hopefully that gets better! She talks a lot more, it's all jibberish but I pretend like it's really a conversation and she seems to like that a lot!

So I've just been having a hard time coping with not having the same friends that I used to! Not being able to text them and joke about something that was said or that reminds me of that person.. it's hard, but they're not around; so I can't put myself in the situation where they are going to hurt me or my family again. Life just quite hasn't been going as I planned! I got this job at night so I could help rob out so he wouldn't have to quit working, but he didn't appreciate that at all he was almost mad. I think it's dumb that I'm always thinking about people and they don't even give me that same consideration. Whatever though! I'm just having a hard time dealing with the reality of it all I guess. Like I really didn't expect for anyone to grow apart. :( But I guess its something that has to happen.

Anyways something crazy happened and I took a video of it. We went to the duck pond by our house and you'll see!

It's really been that long!

I haven't written cause there really isn't a whole lot going on!

We've gone to the state fair. Played at home, nothing too special. Lili is growing up so much she can say oohh and she shakes her head no still, she finally says Momma! She now takes a couple steps then drops! It's ok she is really advanced for her age so I'm not worried! I also all ready made her Halloween costume so it should be a really fun night.

County Fair!

Every year we go to the county fair or the State fair up in Salt Lake! This year we just went to the county fair which is in Spanish and since I honestly do not like going up to Provo anymore it was nice! Liliane got to see all the little baby animals and then she got to go on the Merry-go-round. Which she did not like at all! I got to go on some rides with Traci and Taelyn and it was a blast! Something I always get is a caramel apple, and by golly it was the best caramel apple I have eaten so far! My baby girl is 9 months today it's so crazy! She is the best.. she needs to start walking by next month or I loose a bet, but I'm sure she will soon cause we've gotten her some things to help her out!

It's Windy!

So I never noticed how Windy it is up here in Spanish! I was talking to Pam and she was going off about how it's so nice outside.. and of course stupid me is like "Are you sure it's so windy outside", she laughs and just explains how is cause I live so close to the canyon, but in all reality I'm not even that close to the canyon and its blowing really hard still. I feel like the tree next door is going to blow over. Oh well at least I don't have to turn on the swamp cooler. I'm watching Liliane try and take off her bow and It's funny cause she just stretches it out and smacks herself in the face.. and I have to laugh until she starts crying it's just funny. Well now we are just waiting for Pam to come over and For Dani to call! I miss my friends we all live in opposite forks lol!! That's about it. I can't wait for Sunday I bought Lily the cutest dress at Crazy8. Rob hated the price, but I thought it was ok because the size is from 6-12 months and since she's short it'll fit her for a long time. Everything except her arms are fat! I mean for being 20 pounds since 7 months I don't know I guess I expected her to be a ball. Well let's see if she leaves her bow on. P.S. She speaks. She says Dada, Yaya, No and shakes her head. She says her nickname Tata! But I'm working on Mama

Two Years!

So Today has been two years since My Brother Cris passed away. I still miss him so much every single day and I'm still so sad! I don't know If I will be the same. I don't want to think about how to explain to Lili what had happened, but he is always in my heart and I know that through God's will we can be together again!!

We moved!

It's official we are now Residents of Spanish Fork! I love our new house it's just the right size for all of us. Thanks to Laura for helping us out so much! A big thank you to my Honey Rob, gosh you are so macho moving in all our stuff and painting the Red kitchen like a pro! We have just under an acre of backyard! Fun fun fun get all the kids over on a slip and slide. So here are some pictures
This is Liliane's room it's a poopy brown! I absolutely did not like this color at all!


This is the after! I love home depot for color matching the green on Lili's quilt from the bedding my momma gave me. Then we just returned to Babies R Us and got the border that matched to break up the contrast! I wont really show you any of the other pictures that I have posted up because the other rooms aren't finished. The master Bathroom we redid and it's still in the works. We painted that one like a crystal clear ocean blue color. It's awesome.
Anyways I will give you an update!

Things that have been bothering me!

So lately I have just been so down because there are things that are bothering me that I haven't really talked about with anyone.
First is the whole Micheal Jackson thing. I am shocked/awed/appalled that people have the GUTS to sit there and make jokes about his death and just be disrespectful to him and his family. I personally think it's tragic that his children loose their Father and a Mother looses her son, and Brothers and Sisters loose their baby Brother! Whether or no we agree with the lifestyle people live we need to be respectful and remember that he who is without sin cast the first stone. I think that MJ probably dealt with some hard things in life, but his errors are his and he will deal with God when his judging time, as for us we are no one to judge him or speak ill of him or his family. That has just bothered me so much because automatically people think of the bad and not of the good. Like how he was a record holder for most charities supported by a pop artist or his humanitarian work. I don't think there is a song that we can find that is innaproppriate or suggest something terrible like other talented singers out there. I just want people to be quiet and mind their own.
Another thing that has been bothering me is people Calling The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints a Cult! How the heck are we a Cult?!! Can someone explain that to me?! I guess that I've been born in the church I can't seem to fit that into perspective. The thing that brought this up is when Big Love and i'm sure you've heard of it, erd that episode of them getting sealed into the temple. What bothers me is that some idiot that was X'd had to go and tell all the SACRED meanings and symbolizms of the Temples. How dare they? Don't they know any better. I'm no saint in any way shape or form, but I could never go against what I have learned in my 21 years of life and tell them to other people to make money that is just wrong.
I was walking through the Oquirrh Mountain Temple 2 days ago with Rob and we were holding hands in there and just beeing silent and looking at each other when we saw something we liked, or telling each other we loved this we loved that and he would explain to me a little bit of what they did in each room since he has been and I haven't. If I would ask a question about something he wouldn't answer. Like in the ordinance room how there is a curtain. I asked him why is there a curtain, like why not a wall. He simply said Baby there is a reason, but I can't tell you why.. you will just have to wait and find out. Which makes me even more curious which makes me want to speed up the process so I can go.
In other words I felt the spirit of the Lord so strongly (other then that annoying kid that we caught up to that would not quit screaming. They finally asked him to leave..THANK GOODNES). I am really saddened that people talk bad about the things that I love and that I have a knowledge of. Like I was reading this blog that a women wrote on that episode of Big Love. She says "I find it interesting how the Mormons have these little secret rituals. Why would I want to get sealed to the person I'm marrying anyways. I find death to be a new start, I don't want to see my husband for the rest of my life." It bothers me how in every comment that people have written about this episode they use the word secret!! It's not a secret!!! It is SACRED! Which in other words means that it is Holy, or inviolable, or divine.. whatever word you want to use. It is so special. In one of the comments it had a link. I regret clicking on that link. It explained in detail about what goes on in the temple and the things that they do, and why you wear the special clothing. I should have stopped reading it, but I just couldn't believe what I was reading. I closed my laptop immediately after it started talking about what is exactly on the garments. UGH!! When I pray tonight I just need to be really sorry for that and ask God to forgive the person that did that. I know millions of people probably clicked on that like I did. Basically that's all I had to say. Also that I love my Father in heaven for then anything in this world and I know that he loves those even though they doubt him, and I know that he suffered so we may have the knowledge that we do. I am also happy for those who choose to except his gospel and teach it.
I also wanted to say that I love my Friend Salo sooo much. I think about him all the time, and I am so happy that he is on his mission and having such great success. I am so grateful to have the time that I did with him. He has taught me alot about myself, and made me want to be better because I can, and because I should... not for anyone else except for my daughter who loves me. I hope I can be as great as you one day!

update!

So I haven't really been blogging lately I guess I lost my stamina to do so. But this summer has been so fun us girls. We have been swimming numerous times and have played at the park. Liliane has both her bottom all ready, she crawls and she stands up by herself with no help at all. I caught her trying to play with this snow globe I have and it scared me half to death. Her doctor says that she is going to be so smart, and that she is just way to advanced for her age. So for the walking I'm going to make a guess-stamet (I have no clue how to spell that) That she will be walking by 10 months so we still have 2 months to go. She eats everything in sight and she is a handful and it's hard sometimes.
For the 4th we went camping with Rob and his parents up at Mt. Pleasant! It was the prettiest place I have been to so far. The view was just amazing. I didn't get to take pictures because every time we would leave on the 4 wheeler we would go on some pretty tricky trails and plus my mind was somewhere else. I had lots of fun. It's been 3 years since I have gone camping. I've had this anxiety about it since Cris has passed. Seeing as that is the last thing we did before I would never see him again. It was hard because the whole time I kept thinking he would be having a blast with us up here, or he would be laughing at me almost killing myself on the 4 wheeler cause I didnt notice the drop on the other side and if I would hit the brake I would flip so I had to coast on down like lightning. Then we went to the rodeo and that was really fun. Made me sad cause of Cris but I know that he was there having fun too! Poor Lili gets to sheep ride when she's older.. if she wants, and she also gets to catch the greasy pig. Anyways that way my weekend I hope everyone else had fun!

So Liliane!

She crawls, has a tooth, and explores every little thing! Mind you my daughter likes to pose for pictures and I did not put the baby float on her head. I was doing the dishes then I went looking for her and that's what Found.

So last night's little ER trip. I was putting Lili's high chair together and I asked my mom to hold the other end of the chair so i can screw it in. On my entertainment center there are two little doors that she likes to play with. Well she was playing with that when all of a sudden I hear BAAAAAANGGG!! Lili had slipped and whacked her head on the hinges of the doors. She was quiet for a second or two then I hear screaming. Like blood curdeling somone just stabbed me scream. So my mom is the first to get her, and of course my mom freaks out so me with a calm head I grab her and I see this spot on her head and I thought it's going to crack open here in a second and start to bleed, but I can't say anything about it to my mom because she will start screaming and freaking out. So I held her little head tight as she wiggled and screamed and I tried singing and being calm but deep down inside I wanted to cry.. So I told my mom to quickly get some tylenol because her head would hurt, and to get and ice pack. I told her to hurry so when her back was turned I lifted my hand to look at her head again so see what was going on and her head in that area was the size of my fist in a ball, and I started to freak inside!! So I called Rob and his brother was trying to be all funny and a jerk on the phone. So finally we went to the hospital nothing was broken thank God, but she was just shook up. That was the thrill of the night.

Vegas Vacation

Not Griswald style but a little close!

We went to Disney's The Lion King which was AWESOME!! I wish I wouldn't have payed so much for my ticket which was front row! I should've payed less to see more! But being up close I got to see all the detail and vibrant colors! It is something I think that everyone should go see. I have this odd love for Musicals I guess it started in Texas when that was my life.

So I played slots and that was a ton of fun! At one point I thought that I had won $125 and I was screaming and all excited LMAO turns out it was only $40 That was probably the high light of the day! And now I'm dead broke! I guess it's time to start looking for some permanent jobs! I got a speeding ticket too! Ugh how dumb! My first ever on the highway and he didnt even give me a chance he just stuck me with a 13 over and I wasn't going 13 over he was being such a jerk! I'll post pictures!

I can't stop it!

So in about 8 days Liliane will be 6 months. This is so crazy to me because just the other day I was coming home with her for the first time. So crazy! Any who She is so smart and is learning very quickly!! I'm trying to get her used to not sleeping in our bed anymore and its working very well for the most part. She just wakes up way early now! she doesn't want to sleep during the day she wants to be awake for everything. On Mother's Day while at the movies she found out that she had to exercise her focal cords and yell at the beginning of the movie (Ghost of Girlfriends past) NOT THAT GREAT PEOPLE! So Lili rolls over.. and it's so crazy to me because she rolls perfectly unto her stomach but then she gets a little scared about her arm and doesn't want to roll back over so she cries haha!! She also scoots! I will lay her down in her crib and then when I hear her crying she's like crammed in the very upper corner and doesn't know how to get down. Very Dramatic my child. She can sit up but not for long because she likes to rock herself back and forth so she falls and clonks her head and then is very very upset. Thats the funny thing she doesn't cry when she hurts herself she screams in anger and frustration. Well she is a blessing and I love her more then any little thing on this earth.

Arizona Pics

We're Back!

Arizona was a blast aside from it taking forever to drive there! I think next time I will for sure fly! But Lili, and I had a blast.. and of course Rob did too, but who knows! I will post up some pictures later for the most part they are on my facebook!


So the whole truth. When Rob was driving he kept swerving and that's when I realized he had been texting the whole time. So he had really shady and so off lately, that is when he was gone I decided to go through his phone. He had been texting brittney engstrom the whole time and some chick named hayley. Well he had lied to me about hanging out with people while me and his daughter sit at home bored. He's on unemployment and now I know why he isn't searching for a job. Anyways I get home and I still don't believe him. I hacked into his accounts which wasn't hard to do. Come to find out he had been dating a variety of girls and sleeping with them too. All along I thought he was getting his act together to bless our child. Now that I think of it I'd rather have someone worthy and pure of heart to do it. Anyways When I log into his facebook account. Turns out he hangs out with girls that were my friends and who knows what. Probably was inappropriate with them too. Like do they look at me and laugh and just talk about what a hag I am. So this is just me being heart broken finding out I have been lied to and cheated on. Emotionally and physically. I have cancelled my phone so facebook and e-mail is the only way to get ahold of me for now!!

Lili has been sick!

Lili has been sick for 2 weeks all ready. It's either a viral infection or she is allergic to dairy or proteins. Which is not good at all. The doctor gave us Nutramigen! Which is $25 for a 12.6 oz can. He just gave us samples of it, but thank goodness Lili does not like it because Rob and I can't afford that. Oh my goodness and does it ever stink!! It smells so bad I couldn't imagine drinking it. So we are just going to try soy milk by Similac and see if that help if not Alimentum by Similic is the same thing as Nutramigen-- but it's just as expensive!! So We do have WIC we just need to get a prescription for it. And maybe they will give it to us, but I'm sure that it wont be for a long time. So ARIZONA is coming up and I AM SO DANG EXCITED!!! I haven't been on vacation since I got pregnant which has been like a year ago! This is the make or break trip for Rob and I.

R.I.P. Jake

Jacob Taylor Woodger 1988 ~ 2009 Jacob Taylor Woodger was born August 31, 1988 in Giron, Columbia. Jacob came into our lives six weeks later, when he came to the United States and was adopted into our family. Jacob died in a car accident and was taken home to his Heavenly Father on Easter Sunday, April 12, 2009. Jacob attended Skyline High School and graduated from both Provo High School and Mountain Land Applied Technology School in Orem, Utah. He also attended Salt Lake Community College. He was employed by the Training Table Restaurant and most recently at Harmon's Brickyard Grocery Store. He was a member of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints and a member of the Olympus 4th Ward. He participated in soccer, football and scouting and coached a Skyline Little League Team where he was adored by the players. He loved his dogs, cat, car, hanging with his many friends and making memories with his girlfriend, Laura. Jacob's infectious smile will be missed by all who knew him. Jacob is survived by his mother, Elizabeth Ann Woodger, and brother, Joshua Winston Woodger. He is preceded in death by his grandparents, Edward Winston and Norma Taylor Woodger. Funeral services for Jacob will be held on Thursday, April 16, at 12:00 noon at the Olympus 4th Ward, 2675 East 4430 South, Salt Lake City, Utah, where family and friend are invited to call on Wednesday evening, from 6 to 8 p.m., and on Thursday morning from 10:45 a.m. to 11:45 a.m. prior to the services. Interment: American Fork City Cemetery. Please send condolences to the family at www.larkinmortuary.com

You were such a good friend. You were the funniest person I knew. I'm going to miss speaking with you! Rest In Peace!

Temple Square!

We went to Temple Square on Monday in SLC, and I fall in love every single time. The sights and sounds speak for themselves. The funny part of the day was the we were in the North Visitors center and of course my mom likes to talk to all the sister missionaries, and there is one that was from France. Of course my mom likes to brag that my 4 years in high school were spent speaking French, so she starts talking to me and I laugh and reply in my broken French. Of course I told her I had no one to practice with in French so I can only pick up on a couple words here and there. So totally understood me and made me feel like I shouldn't give up hope! Thank You Madame Secrist for teaching me basic communication, so I am able to feel a little bit better and smarter about myself. Ne me quittes pas! Tu vuex m'aider avec mon francias?!! Anyone Anyone?? Yeah. Hear My cry lol!

Anyways here are some pics of our day Taken by me and my mom!

Happy Easter!

So this Easter has been really nice. Last night we all watched the 10 Commandments and it was super long but super fun! We watch it every year and it never gets old. My favorite part is when Nefretiri tells Ramses to kill Moses and show her the blood on the blade, and Ramses can't even come close to getting to him he sent the men into the parted seas and they all wash away. Great Movie!!

Anyways We got Lili's Easter Pics done a little while ago and I never posted them so I guess I will right now.. and I actually took them.

The Duck Came Out To Play

Happy Easter 2009!

Lili's Communication Skills!

Lili started learning how to communicate and this it what it looks like. So stinking cute!

The Living Planet

So Like a week ago Rob and I took Lili to The Living Planter Aquarium! It was about the coolest thing ever. We touched Sting Rays, watched a movie, looked at all the ocean life and all the life inn south America. So cool. The best part about it is they are planning to expand it make it bigger and better. I haven't been to a cool Aquarium since Boston, MA. To me nothing compares, but this Aquarium Runs on local donations and what ever revenue they pull in from ticket sales and gift shop sales. Good Job Living Planet in was very Impressed.

Lili Was So Happy Looking at All The Fish

Rob and Lili Behind in a South American Caymen.(lil' croc)

Swim Swim Time!

Lili's First time swimming in a pool!!!!

Daddy holding me ready to go!

We stole Kewtin's Float, but we have our own now!
We had such a good time. Trinity and Ryan got a hotel and we just went swimming with them the next day.. so much fun! Especially since my little girl LOVED THE POOL!

Momma's In Love

With Gerard Butler. He is probably the sexiest thing to happen to Hollywood since Brad Pitt, and Brad isn't even has sexy has Gerard. I want to marry him some day!!!

Just down

So I've just been so down lately it's crazy! I feel like things might be falling apart and it's way out of my control. I don't agree with some of the things that are going on and that are being said and I feel like I'm not getting the respect that I deserve. I won't get into too much detail, but the situation is stinky. It feels like the only thing I have right now are my friendships, and my mom and of course Lili. I need to save my relationship but it's really hard right now! I need to find a new apartment, but the thing is I don't want to waste money on rent anymore. I want to buy my own place. A place I can do whatever I please with. We will see whats going to happen.

Ears Pierced!

Baby Girl got her ears pierced today and she wasn't too happy about it. At first she fought it and fought it and yelled and screamed! No tears She was just upset. We tried to get her hands away from her ears so we could do it all at once, but she was reluctant to do so then we tried to get her shoulders to go down, but she was reluctant to do that too! Oh boy.. so after what seemed like hours she finally got pierced and these are the photos! She was such a good girl. She only cried for a little bit after they got pierced and then.. she fell asleep! I love my girl she is the best!

Getting ready
Almost got me but I moved My head!
Mommy had to come help!
The end I fell right to sleep after that!